The Journey: Month Two

oh boy month two was hard!

not hard due to travel {which we did} or celebrate birthdays {which we did}

it was hard in the sense that i was struggling with fighting the lies taking up residence in my head.

i know this is a journey and it isn't just about getting myself physically healthy but also getting heart/mind healthy.

i am thankful for the struggle. i am thankful for the chance to get stronger and to put the lies to rest once and for all. i need to replace the lies with truth and believe the truth.

  i am learning accept there are things about my post three children late 30's body that no matter how much i exercise and how few calories i eat will not change. i've been there. it is the lack of acceptance that led to lies, that led to a laze fair attitude toward eating and exercise.

i knew this journey wouldn't be easy but it has been harder in some aspects than i thought it would be when i started.  this is a marathon not a sprint. it is about overall well being not just the weight loss although that will be a wonderful side benefit.

Random notes from month two:

* i have a very strong like for a sonic diet dr. pepper flavored with cherry

* i can handle the diet soda if it is flavored with cherry

* i am surprised that i am enjoying diet soda. never thought it would happen but i think it has to do with the cherry flavor.

* i haven't missed my fountain coke.. okay maybe a little but not bad

* fiber one honey clusters cereal is my breakfast cereal of choice

* i have not been as dedicated or consistent as i need to be on the ww plan

* during the last month i gained some weight but i lost it so i am around the same point i was at the end of month one

* i started jillian michaels 30 day shred today.  janelle and i are going to be partners in doing this for the next 30 days.  we both have class reunions coming this summer and it is almost swim suit and shorts season.  time to get to work! anyone want to join us??

*i did this workout for 30 days almost 2 years ago and at the end i was still yelling at jillian michaels each day. i did see some results but at that point i was in great shape. i am hoping that being out of shape i will see some good results.  i need to work on strength training and this is a good kick start.

* my kids love to do jillian's workout with me :o)

* the step mill is still my favorite thing at the gym.

* i am up to running almost 2 miles when i run... so hard to believe that last year at this time i was going 6-7 miles a few days a week.  i don't love to run but i love the feeling when i finish running. it is more difficult to motivate myself to run knowing i don't have a group i am meeting with on the weekends which held me accountable during the week.  i am learning to find that internal motivation/accountability. but its a journey, right??

* weight watchers candy bar ice cream bars are the BEST!  i eat one almost every day

* it helps me to have a weekly accountability partner to report highs, lows, and weight loss/gain.  she is inspiring ... she met her goal!  she encourages, supports, and challenges me. so thankful!

Weight: 145.7

Total Weight Loss: 4.1 lbs

Goals: be consistent with counting points and documenting my food each day

do the 30 day shred this month

exercise 4 days per week

drink at least 8 glasses of water each day

eat full servings of fruit and vegetables each day

get more dairy into my diet

replace lies with truth