My feet felt heavy like my shoes were filled with cement as I took steps forward from the car towards the entrance to the chair lift. You see, I have this fear of riding on chair lifts (or ferris wheels but I LOVE roller coasters). I do not like the feeling of floating out over space with nothing but hard ground below me.
This past weekend, I caved to peer pressure (especially from my 8 year old who offered to hold my hand) and the frugal side of me who could not let my day pass to an adventure park go virtually unused, and rode a chair lift. Three times. In order to go on a half mile alpine slide at the Ski Bowl Adventure Park in Oregon.
The first time up, I was almost paralyzed with fear. I held on to the pole next to me and the guard in front of me so tight my knuckles were white. I could hardly hold a conversation with my daughter who was trying to calm me and comfort me. I was doing okay until the chair lift stopped. Halfway up the mountain. I started to panic. Tears streaming down my face. Searching for a way to get down (I knew it wasn't possible but I wasn't exactly thinking rationally). We did start moving again, after what seemed like forever, and I made it to our stop. Thank you Lord!
The ride down on the alpine slide was incredible! So. much.fun. You sit on a little two wheeled cart and cruise down the mountain on a concrete track. It was an exhilarating ride down the mountain. I loved it so much, I climbed back on the chair lift to do it again. And again.
I wouldn't say that I quite conquered my fear. I do not have a desire to get on a chair lift again anytime soon. (My arms were sore the next day from hanging on to the chair for dear life each time up the mountain.) There was a point in each ride up the lift where we entered a very dense forest and there was a stream running down the mountain - beautiful and peaceful. I know I wouldn't have experienced that beauty without riding the chair lift. I know my children saw me take on something I was fearful of and enjoy an experience with them. I know my husband thinks that now I will go skiing this winter (not there yet)! I know that I got my money out of my day pass at the adventure park. I know that riding on the alpine slide is one of the most exciting things I have done in a long time. I know this is a memory I will share with my kids forever. Even if it meant riding on that chair lift.