Going Forward

i have been in a bit of a tug of war with blogging.

i feel pulled to sit down and write, post pictures, and update the blog but when i head toward the computer i sit there and just don't even know where to begin.  i have a long list of "to do" posts as well as pictures to download and edit.  i haven't even added current happenings to my "to do" list yet.  oh and the highlighted number on my google reader is out of control. aah! {taking a deep breath}

i have felt very overwhelmed with where to even begin and instead of beginning somewhere i have just been ignoring my blog.  do i start with current events? do i post all of summer and then start on current events?  how do i go about getting caught up?

the task has seemed very daunting.  so daunting that i have been thinking about hanging up my bloggy hat.  i never wanted my blog to be something that caused me anxiety or to be an added stress. it was meant to be a means of updating our family and friends on our life in idaho as well as serve as our family scrapbook of memories for each year.  

i have been really struggling with what to do and was looking for a clear direction.

last week i received a comment on a post from my niece who is in australia studying for the semester:

sometimes it just takes a little knock over the head note to get some clarity.

even though i am behind and feeling a bit overwhelmed in getting caught up, my blog is serving its original purpose in keeping our family and friends updated. it is a memory book of our life each year in idaho.

it isn't about having to be totally up to date {in a perfect world that would be nice :o)}.  it isn't about the number of followers {i am truly grateful for my readers}, and it isn't about the community and friendships {it's been a HUGE added benefit. i have been blessed with some amazing friendships created right here over the internet }. this blog.... it's about recording our life.  i am behind because we spent our summer enjoying and delighting each other.  we spent our summer living a good story.  

at the end of the day that's what matters. thanks hannah for your perfectly timed comment!

***i am going to slowly but surely work on posting and editing pictures. my "plan" is to start with current and slip in some of our summer fun as well.  i am going to hit mark as read on google reader and start over. i am apologizing for not getting your posts read or commenting.  i have to just start over with current or i won't be able to climb out of the google reader hole.